Fear, the devil of all our miseries. Can't avoid it but can easily be dealt with.. well in my case it wasn't so easy. I have recently turned 28 and up until now i wasn't so sure if i ever wanna get married. So what changed and why now.
I have always been an inquisitive soul, always trying to make most out of life by doing whatever i felt like. I never restricted myself from experiencing things which normally people around me may consider a taboo. In short, i started loving free part in freedom. Whenever people asked me to settle down, i would make an excuse of being irresponsible, happiness and what not.
While everyone else is getting married and having babies, i was determined to never settle. So one fine day, while i was musing, this fear struck upon me that i have no one to share my thoughts, happiness, experience with . One may say, what about friends and existing family members ? Is it all about your friends moving on with their lives or you being away from your family ?
I chased happiness for my entire life, and i was happy up until i wasn't happy anymore. So no matter what face i carried forward, something was missing, i was broken.
I have asked many questions to myself in the past. Why should i get married ? If i get married what should i look forward to ? What are my expectations ? Is there any perfect match for me out there ? What if it doesn't work out ? what if she doesn't love you the way you love yourself ? what if she doesn't approve of your choices ? Beside all, i always had a fear, what if i am not a marriage material. So what changed ?
I can tell you this: No matter how vague your present may appear at times, probability that the past will be crystal clear as you dwell upon it in the future is very likely. A problem will always have solution, just needs right moment to come back to in order to explore it. If you have a question, and especially if you find yourself asking the same question for five years or more, chances are good you already know the answer.
And then one day i have made a realisation that love can be so much more, it serve many purposes in life. Its not just about long lasting relationships, together forever, soul mates, romance, settling down, bringing babies into the world and what not.
And so if i will not even try, i will never experience love in its purest /concentrated form. There will always be this possibility of failure or monotony but as long as we don't give up, we can be a step closer to finding true love.
We spent most of our life alone, only few magical moments with others. And in these magical moments we rise in love.
I will always thrive for more but for now i can say, i am ready, ready to madly fall in love, to discover its true meaning as i dive into new phase of my life.
I have always been an inquisitive soul, always trying to make most out of life by doing whatever i felt like. I never restricted myself from experiencing things which normally people around me may consider a taboo. In short, i started loving free part in freedom. Whenever people asked me to settle down, i would make an excuse of being irresponsible, happiness and what not.
While everyone else is getting married and having babies, i was determined to never settle. So one fine day, while i was musing, this fear struck upon me that i have no one to share my thoughts, happiness, experience with . One may say, what about friends and existing family members ? Is it all about your friends moving on with their lives or you being away from your family ?
I chased happiness for my entire life, and i was happy up until i wasn't happy anymore. So no matter what face i carried forward, something was missing, i was broken.
I have asked many questions to myself in the past. Why should i get married ? If i get married what should i look forward to ? What are my expectations ? Is there any perfect match for me out there ? What if it doesn't work out ? what if she doesn't love you the way you love yourself ? what if she doesn't approve of your choices ? Beside all, i always had a fear, what if i am not a marriage material. So what changed ?
I can tell you this: No matter how vague your present may appear at times, probability that the past will be crystal clear as you dwell upon it in the future is very likely. A problem will always have solution, just needs right moment to come back to in order to explore it. If you have a question, and especially if you find yourself asking the same question for five years or more, chances are good you already know the answer.
And then one day i have made a realisation that love can be so much more, it serve many purposes in life. Its not just about long lasting relationships, together forever, soul mates, romance, settling down, bringing babies into the world and what not.
And so if i will not even try, i will never experience love in its purest /concentrated form. There will always be this possibility of failure or monotony but as long as we don't give up, we can be a step closer to finding true love.
We spent most of our life alone, only few magical moments with others. And in these magical moments we rise in love.
I will always thrive for more but for now i can say, i am ready, ready to madly fall in love, to discover its true meaning as i dive into new phase of my life.
